A beautiful night in the city :)

10.17.11
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The Nonexisting Perfection

People always ask me, “How’s life?” Honestly, it’s great, but it can always be better. Like any other person, I don’t think I’ll be fully satisfied with life. Nothing will ever be perfect. I will always want more.

10.17.11
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A New Chapter.

Words cannot explain how I completely feel, but I will try my best to compose my thoughts into this post.

On Saturday, June 11, 2011, I became an official high school graduate. While tears came down my fellow classmates’ eyes and everyone was impacted by the feeling that everything was coming to an end, I was actually okay. I did not think everything was ending. I was excited to start a new chapter in my life.

So many things happened throughout the years. I met new friends when I came back to Hercules. I re-developed my relationships with friends I met in preschool and elementary school. I learned the importance of asking questions and taking control. I forgot what it was like to have a dad. I got my first boyfriend. I learned how to drive. I got into fights with my mom and sister. I took on more responsibilities. I lost friends, but found my true friends. But most importantly, I learned how to be independent and discovered who I am.

I am sure I still have more to learn, but I think I made decent progress growing up. And to be honest, it really was because I had a dad who wasn’t around anymore and a mom who had to work full-time to make ends meet. I started to feel what it was like to have most of the responsibilities. I know I cannot change the past, but I will always wonder what it would have been like to live my teenage years with my whole family together. Would I be different from how I am now? Would I not feel ready to face the world on my own because I had both of my parents spoonfeeding me? I will never know. But really, I thank my mom for everything. Without her, I would not be who I am today. As for my dad, I do not know what to say. Unfortunately, he took barely any part in my teenage life and shows no regret. I will forever be disappointed.

Of course I am still excited for this new chapter in my life. But I realized that I am also overwhelmed. Overwhelmed at the fact that I am growing up and that my life is solely in my hands now. Nothing is spoonfed to me anymore and no one can hold my hand when I make mistakes. I am on my own.

But despite this overwhelming feeling, I am confident. I am scared, but I know that everything will be okay as long as I do something about it. I cannot be lazy, weak, or even, cocky. I must be productive, strong, and faithful. I need to re-establish my priorities and set goals that I will strive to succeed. Life will always try to challenge me, but I must remember that I am the winner.

06.23.11
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Teenage Cruelty (Blog for Journalism)

From the locker-filled hallways to the loud cafeteria, quiet classrooms, and now the World Wide Web - bullying seems to follow someone everywhere.

Teenagers, in general, just aren’t the “precious little angels” most parents describe them to be. Some of them sneak out of their houses late at night or party when they are supposed to be sleeping over at a friend’s house, and others lose their virginity or engage in drugs and alcohol. However, now there’s something else added to the list: teenagers are getting meaner.

The definition of bullying has changed and expanded over the years. The stereotype of a bully remains as a large boy or girl who steals innocent people’s lunch money, forces them to do their homework, and stuffs them in lockers if they disobey. Now, ordinary name-calling and texting naked or exposing pictures of someone to hundreds of people are categorized as bullying. However, what is becoming the biggest problem is teenage girls calling each other “sluts,” “whores,” and “losers,” and threatening other girls for their own personal gain.

It is difficult to believe for those who have never experienced any type of name-calling or teasing that bullying still exists today, mainly because stereotypical bullying has shifted into something more extreme. High school females, for example, are now willing to do anything to inflict pain and humiliation to others by turning the entire school against their victims or constantly harassing them on their social networking sites. In the end, this extreme bullying seems to come down to competition. Whether it is being the prettiest, skinniest girl with the high-end clothes and perfect hair or the one with the most attractive-looking boyfriend, all girls seem to stop at nothing to get what they want. Perhaps that is why girls feel a need to step on someone else in order to reach the top of the social ladder. If they feel threatened, they will do everything in their power to feel secure again, even if it means losing their class, or their minds, for a moment.

Despite how long bullying has been around, reasons for this extreme behavior are still pretty vague. Bullying could well be a stress-reliever, a hobby, or revenge for once being humiliated. However, some believe that movies, shows, and reality television play factors in bullying. In films and programs such as Mean Girls, One Tree Hill, Real World, and Jersey Shore, girls are seen to utter vulgar terms such as “sluts,” “whores,” and “bitches” quite frequently, start physical fights, and humiliate another by spray-painting “dyke” on their locker or writing negative comments about others in a “burn book.” Like all parents say to their children after they watch a horror film, “it’s just a movie.” However, in reality, people see what is on television and believe that is how life should be and therefore, that is how they should act.

Being verbally and mentally abused can cause too much of a pain to even escape, especially when the tormenter is a friend. Unfortunately, girls feel too ashamed to share what is happening to them and eventually turn to suicide to erase the humiliation. However, attempting to get help from an adult or counselor is much better than ending life altogether. In the end, it’s not about making someone else happy because the only person that truly matters is the one who is getting bullied and stands up to say “no.”

10.24.10
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No one said that growing up was easy.

So deal with it.

08.24.10
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According To Parents: We are too young to “love” We’re too old for “fun” We’re too smart to “play” and too “immature” for grown up convos. No wonder why we are so rebellious, there’s nothing else to do.

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fyeahstrangefinds:


 Ink Calendar 
This cool calendar is dipped in ink, and it’ll bleed as the days go by. Each number on the calendar is printed daily, until the end of the month when the ink well is dry. So, the calendar not only signals elapsed time but gives a true sense of it. The calendar is an invention of Oscar Diaz. (Source)

fyeahstrangefinds:

 Ink Calendar 

This cool calendar is dipped in ink, and it’ll bleed as the days go by. Each number on the calendar is printed daily, until the end of the month when the ink well is dry. So, the calendar not only signals elapsed time but gives a true sense of it. The calendar is an invention of Oscar Diaz. (Source)

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This is one of the few times I wish I had a cat.

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I need this!

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I am not a baby or little kid.

I may be short, but I’m strong. I may have a high-pitched-little-kid-sounding voice, but I’m mature. I may have a chubby, baby-looking face, but I’m grown up.

I’m sure not an adult, but I’m sure not a little kid either. I know my rights and wrongs. And I know if I make a mistake, I’ll fix it on my own.

But I am 17-years-old and refuse to be underestimated. So get it straight.

08.07.10
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Random, yet funny. (:

Jonathan: You're a butt face, but for some reason, you're pretty cool. Haha. ily.
Me: Hahaha. And you're a booger, but you're pretty cute. Loove you. (:
Jonathan: You'd pick me first?
Me: Duuuh. I'd search every nostril for you.
Jonathan: Ewww. Haha. Night, love you.

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Think positive. It’s the first and your best step to success.

Guaranteed. On everything. Pinky promised.

08.05.10
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I will be successful.

I refuse to give up. I refuse to be let down. I refuse to underachieve. I refuse to be just satisfied. I refuse to fail.

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